I have had crohns for about 4 years now and i gotta say... Not that great so far. Ive never really been in remission yet. Its been crap for most of that time.
Just for the people that don't know what crohns is, its basically ulcers in the bowel that get inflamed and cause serious pain, going to the toilet way to much if you get me, sickness, tiredness, dehydration and can also develop into cancer! Not good as you can see. Wouldn't wish it on my worse enemy.
My crohns has been really bad for about a month and half now. I usually just push through it and get on with life but this flare up has been different. Ive actually given in to it. I have had bad pain for all that time so of course I've been taking lots of pain killers and been high most of the time, which isn't actually too bad :). Ive not had energy to do anything so I've been in bed watching TV and going on the net for most of the day, again not too bad but it does get boring. I just want to be able to go out for the WHOLE day, instead of going out for about an hour then get too tired and want to go home. Even on my birthday, i got money that i wanted to spend so me and my mom set off to town and after about 20 mins i needed to sit down!! Is that the normal feeling of a 25 year old? Feel more like a 80 year old. I do have a bright side though, i have lost nearly a stone! Woo hoo! Not the best way to loose it but ill take what i can get :) i have kinda gone off food, not eating much at all. Im trying to eat more but i just cant manage it. Thats another side effect, one of the nice ones :) ha!
Been to the hospital about it and they have come up with a plan. I got to have a capsule camera and have tests to see if I'm intolerant to milk and sugar. Hope I'm not intolerant to sugar because i do like chocolate and sponge, yum yum! And other things of course :) But if all else fails I'm going to see the pain nurses and find a way to manage my pain. Thats part of the plan i don't like, i don't want to be on pain killers for the rest of me life, that would be horrid.
I just want to get better so i can work and go out for more than 2 hours and just get on with my life.
With this flare up though I'm getting closer to my cats, Tabatha and Jasper. On my very bad days they don't leave my side which is very sweet. Tabatha knows when I'm in loads of pain because when i am, i put my knees to my chest and she just looks at me and meows. i have to say 'I'm ok' and stroke her because otherwise she doesn't shut up and starts to head butt me.
Think thats it for this blog. I know it was short but i will post more soon.
Keep smiling =D
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